About Me

Thanks for stopping by my blog- My name is Amber, and I have two things I am really passionate about, and they would be Jesus, and family. Jesus became real to me in March of 2008, and my life has not been the same since, hence the reason to blog. This blog is just another way that I can fame the Name that set me free and hopefully encourage others along the way. I pray the words of this blog, the words the Lord has written on my heart to share with all of you, encourage you, build you up and cause you to lift your eyes off of your less than desirable circumstances, and place them onto the totally capable Father in Heaven. Jesus is my everything, and I pray you feel His love here. Bless you friend. Spend as much time as the Lord allows you on my blog, and be blessed.

Hebrews 11:8

"By faith, when Abraham was called to go to a place he would later receive his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going."

Monday, September 27, 2010

Running Around In Circles

I have been over thinking things a bit lately, mainly because I'm trying to do everything right, stay organized and be prepared for what God will have me do each day, but unfortunately, I'm starting to get a little overwhelmed. I'm overwhelming myself. Anyone else ever do this? I hate that I do, and I'm sad that I'm still running around in that same circle...but I am. And the Lord has put it on my heart to really focus on overcoming that. I suppose it could be classified as just having "one of those days.." but often times, it seems as though it runs deeper for me. I have much to look forward to, I have many joyful things that are apart of my life today, and I have great purpose in who I am in Christ, and yet, I still hear the whispered lies in my head, the ones that we all hear, and the after a while of listening to them we all get bogged down by. That too is something more of me that I'd like to divorce.
God tells me it's not my job to overcome on my own...It's only in His strength that we stand, and when we are weak, He is strong for us...when we are tired, He is wide awake, ready for battle, and action. He works through us, we are His tools, His mouths, His vessels of His message.
And in that, I still have room for fear? It should not be this way. That is over thinking, and really, it's passing myself up on freedom that is readily available to me.
So I say, "I'm tired of life not being the way I wish it was..." meaning, the difficulty pregnancy has brought into my life, I can't move, I'm sore...and my list I love to complain about goes on and on...
I have to believe His disciples felt this way at times, "I left my family for this? This road is long. The sky is hot. My feet hurt, I haven't had any food I like for a while...my coat has a hole in it..." And I'm sure, they got hung up on that stuff for a while...until the Lord quieted their grumbling, reminding them, they had greater purpose. Now it's not to say that life will always be hard, or that things will always be for us just as they are right now, but in this moment, I need to let go of my "discomfort" and trust that God's got some plans for me, and that He plans to sustain me when times are a bit hard.
I keep finding myself say, "I can't keep up!" whether it be with the house work, the children, the tasks I tell myself I must to today to be a worth while home-maker..but my worth is not in those things, and if I ask for the strength to accomplish the things HE thinks are important, the strength will be there.
So, even if today is "one of those days.." and I feel tired, inadequate and as if the road I'm walking it just too long, He knows, and He's waiting for me to ask Him what HE thinks in regards to me, rather than what I think of myself. What I think about me, will always be flawed. What I think about what I can accomplish will always be narrower than what He thinks, and I will always underestimate myself, compared to what He knows to be true of me. I just need to ask Him and when He answers me, believe what He says. I wonder how many of you may be having this type of day as well? If you are, and you really identify with feelings of "I just cant keep up..." then know that you are not alone, and God longs to answer your cries. So ask Him. Don't hesitate to tell Him exactly what you feel, and then watch as He points you right where you need to go, either in the Word, or as someone around you offers you the support you need that very moment. He is God who cares about the details. So go ahead, tell Him, tell Him your fearful, tell Him your overwhelmed...tell Him your unsure...tell Him your just so tired. He is your creator...He cares more than any other soul ever will, and He's just the right person to tell, because he has all the answers.

1 comment:

  1. Oh, how I needed to hear this today. My "to-do" list is a million miles long, school has been a disaster for my kindergartner, my house looks like three tornadoes ripped it apart... on and on... My head is just spinning and I need that quiet peace that only He can give.

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