My Heart, His Throne....

Today in church there was a song, that had the lyric, "my heart, His throne..." in it, and I was absolutely struck by that. I leaned over in my chair and thought long and hard about what that ACTUALLY meant for me..

When I was 5, I "asked Jesus into my heart." When I was 12, I was baptized. When I was 23, I sold out and started living liked I preached. And acting on the hope, faith, and redemption that I had possessed, but not lived like I possessed for 20 some years.

He is in fact "in my heart..." meaning, for those of you who don't speak "Christianise..";) that His Spirit dwells within me, and all my emotions, all my thoughts, all my passions, all my doings hopefully reflect a beautiful picture of Christ. Meaning, I mirror an attitude of Christ.

There are many times in a day, my heart does not do this. In enters grace! Praise Him for that.

As I ask for forgiveness for my "dirty throne room" I am able to once again, start anew and begin to offer Him, a clean place to reside within me...hopefully having my doings, reflect the same as that of Jesus Christ.

But today, as I took an honest gaze at myself through the lens of truth, what I saw was not pleasing to me. In my heart I saw all the makings of a terribly selfish person...A person who had HER best interests at heart, rather than others, and HER desires were being put first. My throne room was not suitable for My King, and My heart was not mirroring what Kingly being would be pleased to reside. I crumpled before Him, knowing that was the first place to start. I told Him, rather, I asked Him for the forgiveness that would start me back on the right track and I knew that daily, I had to lay down my own crosses and pick up the ones He wanted me to carry. For truly, I am created for His purposes, not mine own. A hard concept to at first comprehend, but once on that path, and once the throne room has been cleaned out of all it mess, the joy I feel from being clean, is priceless. Clean is lovely. Clean is free of secrets. Clean is free of guilt. Clean is free of wondering if I am good enough. (For I know I am not, and I am saved by grace, and this knowledge takes away all my burden of trying harder to do right)

King of glory, King of my heart....KING of my heart. Does that phrase send chills down your spine? I have a king, interested in me...A king who cares for my best, and makes my heart, His home. When we ask Him to live in the throne room of out hearts, out goes us. Out goes our selfishness, out goes our ability to be OK with mediocrity, the mediocrity that says, "don't worry, no one sees or cares what your doing...go ahead..." For when I know I have a King living in me, I don't want any filth to enter, I want to please the king for I realize all He has sacrificed for me. This king, gave up His life for me, so that I could have life inside of me, namely, Jesus.

Do these thoughts confuse, aggravate, encouraged or cause you to stop and think? When Christ takes over...life begins. You may think the opposite, that if you were to give yourself over to Him fully, that you would never do anything fun again? Define fun. Fun, is different than joy. Fun, is fleeting. Joy is eternal with Christ. Fun, is debatable, Joy is solid. Fun, is misleading. Joy is honest. Fun is based on circumstances. Joy is based on He who is eternal, and If He is eternal, so is our source of joy.

Do you see? My heart is His throne room. When He resides in me, I am whole, I am filled, I am who I know I ought to be, I am the best version of myself, I am striving to keep things clean if only to honor Him. Why? Because in return, I am peaceful. Truly, honestly peaceful. I am filled. (not feeling as though I lack a thing) I am filled with joy. (even when it's raining in my life) and I am saved. Because death, is imminent. But life with Christ, is eternal. And eternal life, is what He offers us, in return for giving Him room in our hearts. Seems like a fair bargain huh?