Out of the Heart

Dear Father I wanted to write you this note
I feel a small lump in my throat.
What I thought was your plan seems to have slipped through my hands
and I'm left wondering what you have in store.

I am very thankful for all you have done,
for my daughters and my sweet son.
I love them to pieces and gather them in
every day I am thankful to call them mine.

But I question and wonder with a prayer in my heart,
what do I feel this is not the whole, just a part?
My table feels empty and my hands able to hold more,
tears are starting to fall, as my knees hit the floor.

Jesus I cry, my heart wants to break,
this feeling I have will you please take?!
If the longing can't be filled on this side of heaven,
I wish you take away that I long for 5, 6, 7....

I sort of feel shame asking this thing,
You have blessed me so much.
But in your word you say to ask, to seek and to knock,
So here I kneel...

I don't mean to sound ungrateful, or sad,
but the hurt in my heart stings so bad.
I am thankful, I am thankful, I am thankful I cry,
I'll give you this burden, at least I will try.

Jesus I know that you feel all my pain,
You know every tear that hits my cheek with a stain.
I lift my eyes up to look into Yours,
I trust You Jesus.

I know the promise you painted in the sky,
But like Abraham's plan, I can't see the end,
And as hard as I think cry and pray,
My future is always yours at the end of the day.

Each day I wake up and I say, IN GOD I TRUST.
And each day I remind myself, I must...I must.
You are King over all, the flood and the sun.
You are ruler of all, I trust you my King.

I give up, I give up. Once and for all
This is yours, its all yours, I cry, I call.
Take my heart, take my plans,
It's better when they are resting in your hands.

I give up, It's yours.
Take it, this burden from me.
I'll stand up,
I walk forward in victory.