Where The Heart Is

At the root of all, is our heart. Our emotional heart holds all we feel, want to feel and want not to feel. I'm wrestling with the idea that our hearts can feel one thing, and our words can lead others and ourselves to believe something than the truth that's in our hearts.
It's a hard concept to wrap ones mind around because we can even deceive ourselves with what we say, knowing deep in our hearts though, resonates something different.
Obviously, this does not seem like an attribute a person chasing after the Lord would desire, and if that's what you are thinking, you are right. God calls this deception and lies. "There is deceit in the hearts of those who plot evil, but joy for those who promote peace." Prov. 12:20
Now, I realize that "plot evil" seems extreme, but my friends, we do it each and every day, we see a person whom we have an inward competition with for whatever area of interest, and we plot, to beat them, to be better and to make ourselves look better. It's terrible I know, but it's what we do, we are Cain and Able so to speak. Now being competitive in itself is not wrong, but it's the twinge of "frustration" or "i'm gonna kick that girls butt in this..." :) that a little seed of angry evil is planted.
Or a friend gets something you desperately want, and you say, "OH! I'm so happy for you!" Meanwhile, your hearts are say, "Why didn't I get that?" Yes friend, we are all guilty, be rejoice! A savior has been born, who is Christ the King, who comes to take away the sins of the world. BUT, first we have to recognize our lies for what they are, and bring into light all that is dark.
"I tell you this, that you must give an account on judgement day of every idle word you speak." Matt 12:36
(And I for myself think that He probably will want the things my heart said, as well as the things my lips said.)
Now this post is not meant to shame, because listen to this, "The Lord detests lying lips, BUT DELIGHTS! IN THE MAN WHO IS TRUTHFUL." Prov. 12:22
We are on a JOURNEY my friends, a journey of learning, growing and becoming more like our Savior. And healing, first takes a recognition of a wound. If you don't know it's there, your not going to want or wish for healing.
How come an injury never hurts till you see blood? But once you recognize that bright red stain, Oh My! How it hurts, and we rush quickly to soothe it, heal it or in some cases, just cover it up. My words to myself, and to you my friends is this, we should not seek to simply cover up the pain, or injury, we should seek to have our great Physician actually reset the bone, stop the bleeding, and patch up the cut so that REAL healing can take place. Do get the picture I'm painting here?
SO when we feel our hearts say this, "No! I don't like that, My way! NOW!" we need recognize those words for what they actually are, sin. But great are His mercies my friends. And how quickly the Dr. rushes in the heal. He loves to put balm on our chapped and burned hearts. As I feel the salve begin to sink in and work, and tingle of health returning, I am rejuvenated, knowing that I am one step closer to being a completed and whole person. SO lets examine these hearts of ours...Do we mean what we say and say what we mean? How freeing to know that honesty is not only on your lips but in your heart as well, because the two must eclipse. You cannot see the one under because the one over it, so perfectly lines up. This is my desire...A total eclipse of the heart. (and yes, I am sing the song, so don't feel bad if you want to as well.)